Tanya's Cancer Blog
February 6, 2007
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Just a regular week with cancer I guess, huh? Last night I only had to change my pajamas twice, maybe that means my new climara estrogen patch is actually working a bit. I’ve decided from personal experience that the craziness menopausal women experience is most likely caused by LACK OF SLEEP! I’m fine during the day, maybe just a little warm at times, but nothing like at night. I called Comerci yesterday and begged for some HRT, and told him what I wanted after spending 3 days researching on the internet. Also needed to ask for what my new insurance is willing to cover, and being that it’s state medicaid, it’s minimal. CLimara patch it is. It was a little better last night…there’s hope.
I want to go see this woman who specializes in HRT, but again there’s the $$$ factor. Ins. doesn’t cover it, and it’s $95 for the consult. But she tests your levels and then compounds a formula of bio-identical hormones specifically for you. I figure I’ll be on these for like 25 years, so I want to get it right. On the flip side, the surgical menopause hasn’t been nearly as rough as I thought it would be. I guess I imagined waking up with an extra head, screaming and frothing from the mouth. I actually don’t feel that different, and I really thought the lack of girly-organs would feel too strange.
So tomorrow I see Comerci and have my 20 staples removed, gently I hope. ANd then we go over my pathology. I’m nervous even though I shouldn’t be. I guess after the way everything has gone…from bad to worse usually…I’ve become very suspicious. My little brain keeps saying “Nope! I was confident once and then the rug was pulled out from under me! Fool me once…” If I had $5 for all the people that said 31 is too young for ovarian cancer… (Gemma, you are welcome to insert whatever comments here you like)
L U N G N O D U L E . . .I know, I know…If I didn’t have cancer, no one would really be worried. I just want to get off the ride! I’ll be getting a CT scan this week hopefully, and if luck (and statistics) are for once on my side, it’ll be nothing. If you could be in my head…”Gee, I probably have that bad gene that makes you prone to every kind of cancer there is, and it just started in my ovaries. Next is lung cancer, and I’ll be destined to 12 years of chemo and radiation, eternal baldness, and life (and death) with cancer.” That’s the dark place in my mind I try not to go to. See, I’m not always positive! The galactic expert on lung nodules couldn’t put my mind at ease right now.
UPDATE: Feb 8th:I had my appointment with doc C. yesterday, and all of the pathology from my TAH/BSO came back negative! Well, except that the borderline tumors had grown back on my ovaries, but surgery is the only cure for those, not chemo, so I’m essentially cured. Still waiting to get the CT scan for the lung “noodle”, although no one seems to be worried about that except for me. Wow….I’m starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel…
Night SWEATS, HRT, appointment tomorrow, lung nodule..., 
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Thanks for your support -
Tanya good to hear from you.
You are right 31 is not to young to check for The big C. I had a cousin that had both Breast and Ova (Spelling). The sooner the better Get it checked. Get it out there.
We need to take care of each other.
Sherri
I wish you the best with the CT scan and everything comes up 100% clean. And to the “too young comment” I must agree myself lol. Anyone is too young for cancer, I like that more so then tagging it with an age.
When I called my original obgyn who was supposed to remove the ovarian “cyst” that I had cancer, he said “that is impossible, you are only 30!”. I said “well, I’m not lieing, I start chemo in two weeks” He was devistated because he knew he was wrong… very wrong. I actually sent him my pathology report so he could learn from his mistake.
It seems to me that we (OvCa people) are getting younger and younger… I thought this was for 60+ women. I wonder if we are getting younger, or if I’m only seeing the young ones because I look on the internet.
Fear of bad news. Yes, I know exactly where you are. Every time I go for blood test. Every time I get a stomach ache. Every time anything feels ‘funny’ I think, oh shit… more bad news.
I’m sure you are terrified. Try not to be.
Here is what I try to remind myself. ** Stress before you know the facts is useless energy. If I do get bad news, I will be strong enough to handle it. You know why? Well, because I won’t get a choice will I? So… I’ll save my energy to handle bad news if it comes and if I get good news, I’ll save my energy for celebration. But right now in this hour I don’t know the facts so I will concentrate on something I do know. **
Of course, I do ok with this thought process until I get to the waiting room, there I usually work myself into such a tizzy that I can barely breath. Knitting usually helps when I’m in the waiting rooms.
this is a really long comment. sorry.
keep us updated!
Glad to hear today’s pathologies were negative! I thought you said “Lung Noodle”. I thought that was kinda funny that you were calling it a lung noodle. And also kinda strange.
Doing good Ta!
I hope all went well at your appointment today! I was wondering if you would post the name of the HRT doctor that you found. Dr. C gave me a script for 4 months of Premarin so that I’d have some time to figure out what I wanted to do. Now I have one more refill left and since returning to work haven’t had time to look into anything else. While I was on medical leave I had read a bit about bio-identicals and compounding so I am leaning in that direction. Thanks and my best wishes for a complete recovery.
Yeah, the HRT doc is Dr. Sharzad Green from Community Clinical Pharmacy 480-969-0600…right near Banner Desert. It’s a compounding pharmacy and they specialize in bio-identicals.
Tanya,
I think you look beautiful. I love the red.
Take care.
Janie