Tanya's Cancer Blog
December 16, 2006
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Something about the way this has all happened feels really powerful right about now…kind-of like something great is about to happen. You know that strange feeling you get sometimes? Like when things feel like they’re REALLY happening for a reason? I guess I would call it “tapping in” to the positive energy of the universe that is all around us, not to get too cosmic.
The other day I was at Kohl’s maintaining my retail addiction (it’s therapy!), I was wearing a scarf and an older woman came up to me and asked if I was fighting a battle. I loved how she put it and I happily responded ‘yes, I am’. She said I looked great and keep it up. An instant connection between complete strangers.
My friend Jane who lives in Miami and currently is fighting her own battle…she’s been such a great source of support and makes me feel like I’m not alone in all of this. We’ve never met and maybe never will, but I feel so connected to her.
Last night Irvin and I went to a surprise birthday party for a friend of ours that I’m just getting to know well. He sent Irvin an email thanking us for coming and wrote the kindest, most sincere words I have ever read about how inspired he is by us and how strong we’ve been. I’ve met this man twice and his words truly touched my soul.
The amazing out-pouring of love and support we’ve received from friends and family has really touched us deeply. People I haven’t had contact with in a decade have become a part of my life, and I’m realizing how much love there is around us, sometimes you just need to open your eyes.
This project, The Beautiful Faces of Cancer, that Irvin’s working on is going to be huge, I can feel it. He’s had such an amazing response from all over the country, even Canada. Somehow I feel like we were meant to do something like this, and I’m empowered thinking about helping other people.
I had a dream last night that a baby girl fell asleep on my shoulder and called me mama. I woke up with the same emotion and I know I’ll experience that in real life when it’s time. After my crappy day yesterday crying about my infertility I feel like someone, something somewhere gave me a much needed reminder that it’s going to be ok.
I have the most amazing husband in the world, and now I know why when we met we felt like we had to be together, as if we almost had no choice in the matter. Faith in each other, and faith that things will be ok is what gets us through.
I can feel the breeze through the fuzzies on my head!
Happy holidays everyone!
11.07.06 - 
Thanks for your support -
Dear Tanya,
You have no idea how happy I was to read your latest post.
People for the most part are pretty wonderful so it’s not a surprise to me that you are finding friends and support you never knew existed. Sometimes it takes a major life change like cancer to make us aware of how wonderful life and living can be. Nothing makes us appreciate life more than the possibility of losing it.
I don’t know if I’d call cancer a character builder but it does have a way of separating the weak from the strong.
You are going to be just fine, don’t doubt it for a minute. With your attitude and courage you will overcome cancer and probably anything else in life you try to achieve. Also… it doesn’t hurt to have a terrific husband by your side…......
Keep up the good work and get well and take good care of those fuzzies.
Bev
Tanya – I am really excited to see the project your husband is working on, the Beautiful Faces of Cancer. Do you know when we might be able to get a preview of this?
He’s in the process of getting the website going right now, www.beautifulfacesofcancer.com. Right now it’s linking to his commercial website, and soon there will be a link to the Faces website.
I’ll let you know when it’s up and running! If anyone wants me to email them the recent publication he did leave me your address and I’ll forward it along.
: )
Just saw this comment. Can’t wait to see the website when it is up and running. Give a shout out when it is up I would love to help promote it.