Tanya's Cancer Blog
December 12, 2006
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Well, blood counts are still in the norm, although on the low end of normal. I’m sure that has something to do with me feeling a bit tired and sluggish! I’m also having those annoying night sweats again…I’m starting to wonder what my hormones are up to these days. And yesterday I got the 2nd nosebleed of my life, the first was 3 weeks ago. And I mean NOSE BLEED. I’ve never had one like that and didn’t know what to do! I’ll be sure to mention it to my doctor in 2 weeks. Other than that I’m feeling pretty good, but very much looking forward to this all being over. My last (yeah!) chemo treatment is dec. 27, the same day I see my gynecology oncologist to discuss the next phase of treatment…surgery. Uggh.
So I started wearing one of my wigs yesterday. Not because I care what other people think, more just because I wanted to feel “normal” I think. Some days I walk around completely bald and like feeling proud to be a survivor, and other days I just want to blend! I think it’s also that this is going on for a while, and I’m starting to feel how long cancer treatment can be. I do have peach-fuzz starting to come in on my head! But it will be several more months before I actually have hair. I’ve had a bunch of dreams about having my hair back and I wake up missing it. Well, this too shall pass. What I’ve learned from all of this is invaluable, and I know I’m a better stronger person because of it.
Ok, not to bog everyone down with the sad side of all this, but the next big hurtle is the surgery. I have to remind myself that I need a hysterectomy BECAUSE I have cancer, and it’s to insure that I live a long, happy life, but I feel like getting through the cancer crap has been easier than the surgery will be. Irvin and I are still coming to terms with it. In a nut-shell, after boiling down every possible emotion, it’s just not fair. I’m not angry anymore, just sad I suppose. We’ll get through it, we’ll adopt children, and we will go on to be great parents…I think that now that the cancer treatments are nearing an end I’m starting to really feel the reality of the next phase.
On the brighter side! I have a new niece, Meghan Rae, born on Dec. 3rd! Welcome Meghan! I won’t be able to see her until next spring, but I’m sooo happy for her parents and big brother Brandon!
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Tanya-
Both Kate and I are sitting here. We were just talking about how beautiful you are bald and thought we would share that! I’m so glad that your Mom is there with you. Please say hi to her. Take real good care of yourself.It is so nice to be able to log on and read your web site. We think about you a lot.
Love Kate and Janie